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home at last Tuesday, Dec. 20, 2005 - 4:54 p.m. after the most interesting and exhausting semester of my life, i'm finally home for the holidays - loving every minute of the cold and time spent with my family - no matter how fantastically BORING this town is. friday was the last day of school. need i say more? i got out of there as fast as i could, got my hair done and packed for my trip home went with shannon to see matt mackelcan and big 10-4 at the social. i looked hot - all part of the plan, but i was just curious to see if anyone noticed. a few did - ones that mattered did at least matty was great as usual, inspite of his looming cold...and potential overdose of over the counter cold medicines. the rasp in his voice added a hotness to the set. although we all agreed he should have kept the tie on as well...but you know, guys do whatever they want... Big 10-4 just rocked. the new songs are amazing...especially the 'irony of sick'...probably the wrong name completely, but at any rate, it rocked. the way some of the old songs were mixed now were a bit unnerving. the whole crowd was like 'what the beef? it changed?' oh record companies. but whatever, it still was a great show...and i'm sure we'll all catch on and love those songs the new way just as much - because, if we would have heard it this way first, it would have been just as rockin. whatever. The show rocked. frat boys did not though...especially the ones who continually dropped their beer, the one who was probably going to throw up but 'held it in' like a trooper, and the one who insisted on hugging shannon carolyn and i and petting my face. NO TOUCHING ya fuck...grrr drunk frat boys aren't my favorite. but yes, Big 10-4 does Rock! i'll give them that one Matty and Big 10-4 was a fantastic way to wrap up my semester of hell and start my Christmas vacation. I left withouth saying goodbye to matty, and i felt guilty for doing it...but he was busy chatting with some ladies, and i didn't want to interrupt - so text messages work all the same...or so i thought matty called me yesterday asking why i didn't say goodbye or give him a going away hug...and that he just got my test yesterday. so much for an easy goodbye. it made my whole day when i saw it was matty calling. my first full day in illinois, snowing, with my family, my dog, wrapping presents...and matty called...it was a good day... then...then it happened. i decided to put on my jeans that i haven't worn since i was 19. keep in mind - they are junior size jeans...so they are inherently smaller than old navy or gap or other name brand jeans...AND THEY FIT! AND THEY WERE A LITTLE BAGGY IN PLACES!! and i wore them all day... weight watchers rocks my world. and all you assholes who never talked to me before because i was a 'big girl' or whatever - and now you are realizing that 'hey, she is kinda hot...now that she's lost weight'...i'm not so sure if i'll give you the time of day. so kiss my skinnier ass...i look good now, and soon to look even better. i did this for myself, because i was tired of being treated shitty for being a 'midwestern corn-fed girl'...i'll pay you the same courtesy you paid me as for the rest of you - thank you for all your kind words and encouragement. i really didn't think i could stick with this...and get the results that i have gotten. keep cheering me on...because i'm going to be a whole new person in 2006... ~~~~~~ new topic sorry for that rant i spent saturday in indy with lisa and had a pretty good time *I'M MAGICAL* i'm home until the 1st. i can't be in orlando for new years - will hoge/matt mackelcan - and i'm pretty upset about it. but i either stay in an airport all day saturday and get in to orlando at 11pm and miss everything, or stay an extra night with my family (mostly niece and nephew) and leave on the 1st. so i chose to do that...it feels like i have to go back in like 2 days...but i have a while. i think i'm just dreading this spring semester. i have lessons to plan, which i should have done today - and i haven't even started. i just want to avoid it at all costs. the logical thing would be to do it now so i have the rest of the time to relax...yeah right. im the queen of procrastinators. screw that. last minute freakouts are the way to go!!!! i have yet to hear back from the doctor's office about my test results...thanks for calling me back. i'd like to know if i have something seriously wrong with me or not. it'd be nice. maybe then i could settle down and get things done. the lawyer and i are supposed to go out sometime this week - i think he's trying to weasle his way out of decorating for the holidays - and he doesn't even have his shopping done yet - so that's crazy. i'll probably cut him a deal that i won't make him decorate if he lets me help him finish his shopping..because he has nothing bought. lazy ass... nate already has quizzed me if i will be seeing the lawyer or not. and to tell you the truth...i don't think i'm all that excited to see him this time. things have happened over the past few weeks and i just really don't know. i mean, it's a futile attempt to start something that will never happen - so why do i keep pursuing it? it's been fun, but i think the days of trying to 'make some babies' with the guy are over. a kiss on the cheek after 2 and a half years really doesn't mean dick. however, coversations about, around and on my bed have proven more interesting than i could have imagined... merry christmas friends... listening to pat mcgee, counting crows, dave barnes and will hoge...and watching my dog play in the snow... ...at robot speed i rode the hasslehoff...again apparently Monday, Dec. 12, 2005 - 9:41 p.m. did anyone ever see that horrible spongebob movie? i did when it came out and i really wanted that hour and a half of my life back...but the best part of the whole movie was the when David Hasslehoff was on and spongebob 'rode the hasslehoff!!!' so my friend robyn decides to post a hypnotic photo of the hasslehoff from knight rider days on my myspace page. i laughed so hard last night, i went to see Chronicles of Narnia. it was amazing. spectacular. really. the first 10 minutes and i was completely emotionally involved. just simply amazing go see it DECEMBERWEEN ROCKED....at robot speed 'lights will guide you home...' Sunday, Dec. 11, 2005 - 2:34 a.m. in all honesty, i can't possibly sum up what has happened in the past two weeks and do it any justice. but i'm going to attempt it. it is 2:35 in the AM and this is the latest I've stayed up in a lifetime...and for some reason, I can't sleep. Let's see. the last blog was right before I went home for thanksgiving...i'll start there brooke ended up being on my flight, and that was very nice having someone to talk to on the plane and not feeling akward sitting by strangers. it was so good to get home and see my family...and be in the cold weather. i can't tell you how much i miss cold weather. granted, a little goes a long way, but i miss it all the same. It was my nephew's 6th birthday. he's gotten so big and has changed a lot - but not as much as my niece - wow. i saw her days after she was born, and when she was a month old. she's 6 months now, has a TON of hair, and her own little personality. she's amazing. and it tears me up inside that i'm missing her and my nephew growing up. saw pretty much the whole family...which was very nice. ate at gross burger with wally - that kid cracks my shit up. he's too funny. went out with the lawyer again. this time, he was dressed really really nice - he hasn't dressed like this on one of our 'dates' since the first one we had. he looked so handsome and we just caught up for hours. at the restaurant and then at 'guidos' bar for the rest of the evening. it drives my brother insane that i go out with him because he's so much older - but nothing ever happens, we just go to dinner and have a good time. nothing ever happens...until that date. the guy kissed me goodnight. no tongue, but kissed me goodnight nonetheless. i was surprised - dude, it's only taken you...oh...2 years to get the balls to do this?! this is like the 15th date. gah. anyway, it was exciting...and we've already planned a 'date' for when i get home for christmas. i doubt anything more will happen then...but who knows. the flight back was uneventful and i was back to the humdrum life i call being a teacher. seriously, can i get anymore boring? i used to be the partier, the one that was always ready to go...i'm so over it - or just too bitter about everything to really care to do anything. my usual concert or something every weekend has dwindled down to 4 concerts in the past 4 months...THAT'S SOOOOO SAD. so sad. that means, for the entire time i've been teaching...i've only had fun 4 times the way i used to. that hurts my heart...dang this friday is matt mackelcan and big 10-4 at the social...so i'm way stoked for that. then saturday, i go home for 2 weeks...so i got that going for me. :) ummm let's see. since i've been on weightwatchers, i've lost roughly 15lbs (give or take some oz) and it feels amazing. i've dropped a pant size and they are even loose on me. it's the greatest feeling ever to be like...wow, i actually look hot today. and believe it when i tell myself. people have noticed. and are impressed by how good i look - which makes me think 'well God, was i really that fat to begin with?' dang. i guess it is a drastic change...well, however they are meaning it - it's a compliment all the same, because i DO look good. and i'm going to keep it going. i'm almost to my 10%...and i'm almost to what i was when i was 19. that's my goal...if i can get there, and get in the same shape i was then, i've promised myself that i will never think i'm not good enough or any of that bullshit. because quite frankly, i've worked my ass off to lose this weight. i'm not about to get in the rut i was before. so school. what can i say about it that i haven't told 500 people already. i have both good and bad days...and good and bad kids. thugs, dropouts, smart ones, and pricks. that's about it. the smart ones, i enjoy...the rest, well, i REALLY wish we were still allowed to have that wooden paddle with the holes cut in it to be more aerodynamic when you get your ass whooped for being a jerk in class hanging on your board. because some of those kids need to be told 'SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU SMART MOUTHED LITTLE PIG FUCKER BEFORE I BEAT YOUR FACE IN WITH THIS PADDLE'. sometimes i wish i could say whatever i want. sometimes i wish i could throw kids up against the wall. sometimes i wish i could just say 'no i'm not going today' and it wouldn't matter. do you know how much it SUCKS to have to call in? oh fuck. there have been 2 days where i've had a sub and ALL hell breaks loose. there is a reason you get so much time off as a teacher, because that way, they hope there is no reason for you to take off during the year. i had to make a parent phone call this week...hehehehe...and after telling the father about how his son hasn't changed and is still an irresponsible jerk...his dad goes 'well miss, i really don't know what to do anymore...i mean, i really think my son is mentally retarded'. it was all i could do to not just laugh and laugh and laugh. i wanted to say 'yes! that's it! he's fucking retarded! that explains everything!' hahahaha so i've been planning Decemberween forever - a superhero theme. just so i could have an excuse to wear my SheRa costume again. shut up! it's hot and i'll wear it as long as i can! but a lot of people came...not as many as said they would - so me being the 'oh i won't have enough food' type of person...cooks WAAAAY too much because 10 people don't show up and another 3 don't eat a thing. fuck. oh well, i have a ton of leftovers. a ton. they will either keep or i'll have a leftover party. or not. i have so much food!!! none of which is good for me to eat regularly on WW. idiot! So those that came and dressed up looked AWESOME! it was great. we had the green lantern and supergirl, supermom, the shower avengers, isis (or good and evil), gi jane, penny from inspector gadget, the incredibles....and poison ivy, batman and robin. they were really incredible. they put sooo much time into those costumes i was soooo impressed! robin's gloves made sounds when he punched...but also as he was eating and opening presents...too funny. they had tights on...i mean, they went all out. i couldn't stop laughing when i saw them. soooo funny. i videoed everything. my decorations kicked ass by the way...kicked ass. those inflatables...FANTASTIC. but come on kids...when i have a party, it's a dinner party - you need to tell me if you are coming to eat or not. and if you are...come on time! grrrrrr anyway, it was a good good time. Matt Mackelcan called earlier in the day to tell me he was going to try to come. I didn't want to get my hopes up, but i thought it sounded like he was really going to try. And he did! About 10pm he called and said they were on their way - Matt, Matt V and Pete Woj. It was quite interesting. I don't really know the Woj all that well, but hopefully he might remember me from now on. I was impressed that Matt V remembered my name - i mean, the past 400 times i met him i was a new person. But i'm pretty sure he only knew my name because matty told him where they were going. and sorry guys...it wasn't a 'rager' as woj thought it was. i don't throw those kinds of parties. but there was alcohol, and more was supplied, so i hope everyone had a good time matty and i had some much needed alone time to catch up, give a massage, and take care of some matters... i'm really glad matty came. is it possible to go higher than number 1 in my book? probably. but that's where he was before...but following through and coming all the way to my place really made my night. and the fact that he brought friends but still just wanted to hang with me one on one meant a lot. matt mackelcan always has and always will rock my world... :) and um, maybe someday there will be a 'happy ending'. *wink* haha this is the last week of school before christmas break. next friday is matty and big 10-4...it's going to be a bitchin night...i can't wait to rock out and sing along and look HOT. heheheh then home for the holidays. this is the start of a good week. :) i mean, come on..it's starting and ending with matt mackelcan! hehe my thoughts for tonight: the cardinal did NOT bring his boner repellant and his tights were pretty transparent, except for the green lantern - all my coworkers suck, matt v isn't all that repulsive, the woj is kinda cool when he's not completely wasted, for the 2nd year in a row rodrigo hated his white elephant gift, laura had the cleverest costume...and matty owes me a massage now. :) it's 3:16 am, i didn't know this time even existed anymore. i'm getting a shower and going to bed. tomorrow, i have to clean up this place....again ...anxious to sleep in my very comfortable and very quiet bed...at robot speed a sigh of relief Sunday, Nov. 20, 2005 - 8:57 p.m. i go home in 2 days. that's it ...and you're right, i don't forget...i never have.
sometimes it's better just to stay in bed... Tuesday, Nov. 15, 2005 - 8:52 p.m. why is that? i bet you're just dying to know... well... 1. I got a total of 3 hours sleep due to too much work and stupid neighbors.
I JUST WANT TO GO THE FUCK HOME...and get rid of these scum sucking ill mannered wanna-be gangsta sons of bitches... oh, p.s. Decemberween is coming soon. can you handle it? at robot speed do we sell ... french...fries? Sunday, Nov. 13, 2005 - 1:20 p.m. Not anymore buck-o. Since my body is used to all this healthy stuff for the past 6 weeks - stopping at Wendy's to satisfy my fastfood craving was a bad idea...i'll get to that in a second... let's see. i went to a Hanson concert. yes folks, Hanson. and i'm surprised to admit that it was really Really good. pat mcgee opened and was fantastic as usual, but hanson really blew me away. good for them...writing their own music and all that jazz. i'd go see them again. um, went to california to Disneyland and it really is the happiest place on earth. much better that wdw. promise. we had a posh suite at the disneyland hotel - overlooking both parks and downtown disney - i have no idea how i scored such a great room! private entry and all. the parks were great - so much fun. it's so much smaller there, but the theming, landscaping, everything is so much better. you can tell that Disneyland wants to preserve it's heritage, unlike wdw where all we do is cover it up. Disneyland was great...and I saw 20000 leagues (submarine voyage, whatever) and what they are doing to it...2007, i'm going back to ride it! autopia...THE NEW SPACE MOUNTAIN! rocks my world. it doesnt go upside down - but its magnets like rockin rollercoaster - and it's going 60mph in the dark in space mountain...FANTASTIC. the matterhorn...scary fun date ride. there were things i wanted to ride, but didn't get to: mr toad (broken or line 3 hours long) and the storybook land boats (line too long) but other than that...awesome. haunted mansion with Jack Skellington...amazing. good food...jamba juice every morning. just a hella-good time. yes, i said hella... EVERYONE SHOULD GO TO DISNEYLAND! California Adventure was pretty good too...just don't go on their Tower of Terror. It sucks...terrible...aweful. for shame michael eisner...for shame. ummmmmmm school is kicking my ass as usual. i can't seem to get ahead for the life of me...but oh wait - i'm blogging instead of working, go figure. last 2 games of the softball season were Tuesday night - the end of the 1st game - playing 3rd base...i took a line drive to my shin/inside ankle. this boy hit it so hard it knocked my glove out of the way and hit my shin - i was set ready to catch it...i can only imagine what it would have felt like had i not 'slowed it down' wednesday night i had to get xrays to make sure i didn't fracture it...because it keeps getting more purple, spreading all over my leg and foot, swelling so i can't walk... IT'S FANTASTIC!!! and i still had to play another game after that! i didn't cry, i walked it off, iced it between games, and played again. i am the coolest girl you'll ever meet and i'm sure you all know this. the bruising is spreading down to my toes and up my shin...it's deep purple, black, green and a bright yellow...its a cornocopia of pain. as long as i'm not up on it for extended periods of time, it's okay - thank god the season's over, and thank god it's not broken - i have to start coaching again in December... yeah and about the french fries - before i went to get xrays, i decided to satisfy my cravings for fast food and drove through Wendys - big mistake. can you say FOOD POISONING?! yeah, i had to call in sick on Thursday - throwing up and all that, incredible...just how i wanted to spend a sick day :( i go home in 9 days. 9 days! my nephew turns 6 and i get to see my neice...1st time since july. she's changed so much. and this Friday....HARRY POTTER. i have my tickets bought...do you? and Decemberween is fast approaching...at robot speed it's been a long time Sunday, Nov. 06, 2005 - 11:16 p.m. so i really don't know where to begin as it's ass late on a sunday and i should be asleep to prepare myself to corrupt..i mean 'teach'...the future of america tomorrow... but i really have no desire to do anything but vent at the moment. i should talk about my trip to California to Disneyland....it was fantastic by the way. and i should talk about the curve show when mikey fell off stage. i should talk about the will hoge and matt mackelcan show. i should talk about matt nixon coming into town and me getting sick in canada! i should talk about a lot of OTHER things than this...but this...this has bothered me the most. i'm just...a mess MonKappaGirl (11:09:44 PM): what's up ho? more than due? overdue by eons. fuck kurt. fuck every guy who ever thought i wasn't good enough, or skinny enough, or 'blonde' enough for them...whatever. i'm the best there is, who gives a fuck if i'm not skinny...i could kick your ass, and blonde? been there, done that, brunette's command a little more respect - and i'm MORE overdue for respect than i am for another asshat to date. give me a good guy. a good midwestern boy. corn-fed, football/athlete, who loves his family, wants to play in the snow, go to a concert, and loves to travel. better yet, give me a good guy who thinks i'm awesome, beautiful, and would never pass up an opportunity to be with me... wishful thinking...fuckers ...at robot speed
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